Video Monday 19

[ausare]

Am so pissed that all I'm concentrating my effort on is to control my temper or I'll be cursing and swearing right now. There are so many angry, negative thoughts shooting through my mind that I can't begin to type coherently if I tried to blog about this current... situation. Looking back, it's hard to imagine how I used to love it and enjoy my long hours when now, even just thinking about them and seeing their status updates on Facebook is enough to boil my anger all over again even if they're not the cause of it. Then again, when I'm thinking about them, I can't help wondering if the understanding of what we share isn't mutual, that I'm the only one being too sentimental and automatically putting this on a pedestal because that's the kind of person I am, thinking too highly of friendships when the people I share it with obviously don't think the same.

Anyway. I can't blog like this—without a clear mind and a better sense of objectivity, where I might end up regretting what I shared online when I read my old entries again in the next few days or weeks.

Meanwhile, here's something cheerful.

VIDEO MONDAY 19

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Oh, the things we don't realise until someone points it out.

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以上、Chii です。

Comments

[lausi-gm.livejournal.com]

You know what I really admire here?
Your ability to keep yourself in check and NOT follow your first impulse and blog about whatever it is that's bugging you right now. I'm talking from experience here... at YOUR age, that's precisely what I would have done, and believe me, I've had many moments of regrets for acting on impulse like this.

It's really a sign of majurity that you don't let your anger get the better of you and that you try to look back at this after a couple of days and with (hopefully) more objectivity.

I hope whatever it IS that's annoying you so at the moment, will pass.

And BTW... I think friendship and loyalty IS something to value very much and I always assume others think the same way, but it's normal that not everybody does.

*hugs*

C.

[gn-chan.livejournal.com]

I went through something that I could relate to your post last weekend :(. I posted a random msg on twitter, emailed one of my best friends for comfort, and was going to do a post in LJ if I weren't so lazy XD. Whatever, I say that friendship is a commitment instead of a gift, if they can't appreciate it as much as I do, I don't need to do the same regarding them.

There's always someone somewhere we can count on, always. *hugs*