It's that time of the year again

[ausare]

まだ一年。
まだいちねん。
Mada ichinen.
Yet another year.
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Wow. I haven't been blogging for a little over a month and it's almost new year already? Okay, small update, I'm doing fine, work is all right, colleagues are nice (psychotic, but just the way I like it YAY) parents are just as infuriating and nothing interesting happened recently because work is now taking up majority of my time, unlike back in uni when classes end early and we can go elsewhere to have fun. OH OH OH. I've gotten my new passport today! You know how cooped up you are when your (my old) passport is 98% empty, expired three years ago and the photo is of you at age 11 (or was it 9? I couldn't tell). YAY COMPANY (team) TRIP TO BATAM THIS COMING JANUARY!

I was searching for old entries with resolutions of any kind for this year so I can see how many things I've checked off the list but it seemed that I made no such entry. HAR HAR OH SELF. However, in my mind, I know 2010 has been a busy busy year. Also that I seem to be the rare few who had a good year, at least I felt like I had.

Let's see, I got over myself (somewhat. To a significant amount. I'll always have insecurities, shaddup) and got myself a boyfriend, watched a musical, finally finally got confident enough to not fear giving presentations, graduated from uni, learned how to ride a bike, rode a bike for 38km, and got a job. And those are just the more major and easier to list things. There are still smaller, more intricate and subtle things I felt have happened to/with/within me that are difficult to put words to (actually, no, it's not difficult, but I probably won't finish this entry by midnight) and all these things, everything, made me feel that 2010 has been a good, if not eventful, year.

Anyway, for 2010, the only thing I could find about it was that I promised myself to stop bothering with my mother because it only results in agony and anxiety for me. I can't remember if I've blog-bitched about her this year, but I kinda have a feeling that at least it's less than I did in 2009. I still tweet-rant about her, but I can't help it. The anger has to go somewhere so I don't drive myself mad, what with the way I process negative things by keeping them in and then trying to forget or ignore them. So anyway, I'm counting that as a win.

FOR 2011

1. Stop ranting about my epic fail parents to people.
Especially with people who are not my closest friends. Hopefully this helps with cutting myself away from those two incompetent human beings.

2. Don't stay up past midnight.
Unless there's a need for it. Not even weekends. Because I seriously need more sleep in my system.

3. Go to Japan.
It's going to be w-inds.'s 10th anniversary next year and since I missed the chance to go to L'Arc~en~Ciel's 20th anniversary concert (because I thought it was going to be held during Japan's concert season between summer and autumn, but no... IT'S TODAY), I have to make it to w-inds.'s concert, what with them being the only music group (okay, one of the very very very few) that I fangirl over. Since 2004. HOLY HELL. I've been listening to them for six years. WOW. Dedication yo! IN YO FACE FATHER DEAR. Here's your "You'll get tired of them soon" / "They won't last another three years". HAH! Ahem. Moving on.

4. Be an enabler.
I've been enabled by many people this year; friends, in real life and online, and of course Y. I've been better and more and me thanks to these people and I want to do the same. Be a source of positivity and encouragement.

5. Be myself.
I like the way I am now, be it because of uni life or other things that happened this year, I like this less-fearful and more honest person I found. I want to stay on this path and be a little better at being myself each year.

Right, so there are not a lot of quantifiable resolutions/things to accomplish for 2011 but whatever, time to be modest about new year resolutions and start with the small things from within. Here's to a good year ahead, world.

—
以上、Chii です。

Comments

[swift_tales]

Sweety! You are so totally awesome!
I always forget to log on to dreamwidth and I keep forgetting that your blogs won't show up on livejournal anymore, so I don't always check or read or respond. But I do still think of you!

I find that in 2010, we've gotten closer as friends and I'm glad that life improved so much for you. I hope that 2011 is an even better year for you and that you manage to do all those things that you want to do!

*hugs*

[ausare]

Awww :DDD you're awesome too! And I need to be a better friend and comment on your entries too because I still read them (and I do think of you too!!), but most of the time after work my mind slows down and I can't seems to leave comments that would make sense :P

I hope uni and all that annoying admin stuff will be better and smooth-sailing for you this year! Am keeping my fingers crossed for you to get to study in UK!