Words can't describe

[ausare]

Words can't describe how much I hate you. How I hate my circumstances, my life, and all the things in it that I can't choose.

I feel like Merlin now. Having to make do with the things I can't change, while my elder, who, even though knows about my situation and knows that things needed to change, instead of helping or encouraging me to actively challenge things and fight for a change, is telling me to lie low and wait. Wait for, not a chance to start a change, but for the eventual changing of times. To not contest for what is right and to make them see the wrong of their ways, but to wait for when they finally have no say to what I say or do and I can leave while they continue on the way they've always had.

What's the point if they don't get it? How long do I have to wait? A year? Three? Five? Ten? How do I know I won't be driven mad while I wait for my chance to finally leave and cut my ties for good?

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以上、Chii です。